fear & apology

last night the crazy jiyeo went out. the same crazy jiyeo i dont want for u to see. the crazy jiyeo that got paranoid, emotional and vulnerable and weak. the fear took over me, i succumb to the worries. maybe it was because of the lack of food or the pill i was taking but yea i got overboard i overthought and i let my fears and worry take the best of me, i got paranoid im sorry,  it wasnt all my fault tho, you broke that promise and instead u doubled up the amount or maybe even tripled it. im not gonna say im all better again, that trust i gave u u broke it but i undestand tho, and its not like youre  a drunk that drinks alcohol all the time, i know youre not perfect, so am i. you make mistakes and so do i. ill get over this ill try my best to trust you once again.  the truth is, once i heard your voice crying begging me not to leave you, i already forgave you and come to think of it you didnt do anything wrong, you just got caught up in that moment with your friends, but drinking wont solve anything, you know that. at least you learned your lesson. you had fun right? thats good. =). ill hold on to the words you so blatantly told me, ill believe it.im sorry for everything.i love you.