tears faults & appreciation.

1. Out of clutter, find simplicity.

2. From discord, find harmony.

3. In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity.

-albert einstein's 3 rules for work

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail."~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hopeat all."  -Dale carnegie

it takes alot for me to cry in front of somebody.

they may hear me but only a few(and i can count them on my single hand) had actually seen me cry. i cant seem to muster my energy when i wanna cry in front of someone. ive always cried alone, only when im alone can i let it all out, ive cried on the phone but that was because noone was there to watch me, i cant seem to be seen and pitied.

yesterday, was an exception, i cried in front of you, i didnt mean to, i never wanted to, uve heard me cry before, but crying in front of you is a totally different thing. i guess all the stress and frustrations that were aiming at me got the best of me.its too much, all too much for me. life has not been kind lately, its the same for you right? truth be told ( and im not really exaggerating AT ALL, when i say this) that you have been someoe that i can tell anything to, my problems, my fears, my everything. you are the source of my energy and in my mind the only thing good that i have right now. thank you for listening. you tried to cheer me up when i was really really down with everything thats happening in my life, i seriously hate being poor, but you were there sharing my pain, trying to make me laugh and you even cried when u saw i was too. i know youre going through the same thing as me, and i know i should be the one that gives you strength you always end up giving strength to me instead.

thank you. thank you.

i seriously think that life is trying to fck me up. making me go down and tempting me to give up. but i wanna believe in a better tomorrow it wont always be like this, even when im about to give up someone tries to pick me up, so i wont give up. i know its my fault, i made lots of mistakes and i dont have enough will power to prevent it, so theres noone to blame but myself.

it is when at your lowest that you see who your real true friends are. i found a special one in you. you are not just my lover but a dear friend all wrapped up into one.