sunday blues

we barely talked today.
i didnt wanna say how much i missed you, how i was waiting
i didnt wanna be all over your business
i didnt want to seem always clinging to you
i wanted ot appear strong
i kept telling myself i can do good on my own too
but you know what? i guess im cant.
all the while i was looking for you
i kept staring at my phone, waiting.
but you were too busy i suppose.
im glad you had fun tho, you needed that.


i wondered if some day it will be like this,
you and i both busy and dont get to talk as much.
if that happens then im already dreading that day.
sundays always bring me sadness i wonder why?
tomorrow will be the same, i just know it.
i guess ill just have to deal with it, i have to get used to not having you always around.
i have to stand on my own feet too right?  cant always depend on you for everything.


i feel pathetic and stupid writing this here.