never.

terrible weekend.

stressful friday, terrible saturday and then missing you again on sunday.

my computer died..both of them..

i cant get them fixed and i cant buy a new one either..

im broke and have bills to pay and its hard even harder now.. i tried looking for a part time job..even if its seasonal.hopefully i get one..pray for me pls.i just saw that my car's lights died too so i have to get that shit fixed. sigh,december hasnt given me anything good lately..

Fear.i got scared, it wasnt because of the computer or the car..

i was thinking that the only way i was able to see someone regularly was through a webcam, that was the only thing that made it seem your close enough to touch. i got scared and i cried coz that person might forget about me and leave me, of course that person said he wont and he keeps reassuring me everytime. im so in love with that person that the thought of that person leaving and disappearing scares the living daylights out of me. its like living in a world where there is no sun.i cried and cried and all the while you were there comforting and reassuring me even though you yourself had ur own problems to deal with. THANK YOU. i love u. but when ur gone the fear keeps creeping back, the sadness keeps finding its way back. i have grown dependent on ur love, ur voice and ur calls. i need you more than ever, and u never fail to amaze me with how u handle this situation. as long as we have each other even through the bad times as long as i have u( and u know u have me, always) we can make it through.my love for u is as deep as the sea and as wide as the ocean. im lucky to have met you, im lucky to have you in my life. you are my greatest fear, but also the greatest miracle in my life <3.

Life might be trying to beat me down right now, and i might think of going the easy way, i might think of giving up, i may (most likely) cry but i wont give up.

this is just a hurdle, i swear on life that ill make something out of me.

if u beat me down ill eventually stand up and fight back.

life wont take the better off me.this is just a mere obstacle and i can go through it. i wont give up.NEVER.