rant rant

what is this strange feeling in my gut..

is it really over?or is it just....idk a ploy?

did u really settle it? what did u tell him..what went on?

i wana know..i need to know.

fck

my instincts has never failed me..and its saying that somethings up again..

im scared...i really am. will this story end up like the rest?

my knees are buckling and my insides churning

i wanna believe, i wanna be able to believe in this. but why am i feeling this?

is it the after effects of what happened tonight?

im scared to get hurt..idk what to do....

tonight i realized how much i cared for u..when i cried that u might get hurt.

after u called i thought i would feel ok..but the way u told ur story..they way u said it..

idk it didnt feel right. you said u love him? u let him beat u up? u hugged him? damn

truth be told i ddnt like hearing that. im actually scared that he'll take u away D;

or am i....just overthinking.?

i trust u..i do. i dont trust him.

ok i stop

i hope u never read this post